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Deerstrukk

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1 min read
Just moving 

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What even

2 min read
Adele's "Hello" would be perfect right now

So yeah

Hell happened

And I guess I calmed down

Just needed to rest

I have a job now and a huge crush on my beautiful coworker 

But I'm struggling mentally. I started to see a therapist again but my family will not support me in majority of financial situations. I'm trying to look into online schooling so I can graduate early and get a second job and also working for my grandmother because I need to get a new car since mine is on it's last leg and back in the shop. Also need to pay my doctor bills and get government housing

But got out of the hospital recently, doctor gave me some anxiety tranquilizers which are a miracle worker. My therapist is really advising me to keep my promise on seeing this new psychiatrist December 1 (Don't worry, I will). Because she's worried for me as I'm experiencing solid signs of schizophrenia 

I can't even focus much on art anymore. I'm probably going to move accounts as there is too much art on my account I can't even bare to look at as it bothers me for my own reasons. So going and deleting it won't help.

Need something else

So yeah, living with some friends now and trying to get back on my feet and having to deal with potential schizophrenia until I get a 100% diagnosis from my psychiatrist in December. 

Life is hell but I'm trying to get there. It's just so hard going through each day hearing voices tell you that you're better off on the streets and away from everyone else. That you're a huge burden, a loser, and you need to bruise yourself as punishment.

It's horrible 
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Update again

3 min read
Ok, 

I'm at a friend's house right now

Idk when this will be over but I'm just letting life slide by right now. Whether this will be done when I'm 18 or whatever, idk.

This (Like I've said) has basically been over LGBT stuff and religion. Mom not liking me being gay and feeling I'm talking to strangers on here who are "pulling me into the gay side."

My depression has acted up lately and especially anxiety making me have troubles sleeping at night and fear of school.

Please don't forget me and I'm wanting to continue Kurt's adventures and same stones. 

Love you guys

Deer

Please don't forget me

Please

I promise I have full intent on returning to DA when everything is over. I miss everyone

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Update

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The issue is that everyone can not trust me apparently and fights with the family. For the time being my computer and phone is being monitored by the IP address and what not

I still need to get onto some sites and they made me give them my passwords but I didn't tell about da for multiple reasons

I also had a fight with my mom over my sexuality. I was told I would go to hell, gay Christians were basically not a thing, she did not have a gay daughter, etc.

Only reason I'm here is I need to access a few stuff an I had an old iPad I allowed,y school to borrow for AV tech. It's still mine so my teacher allows me to take and use it so I use the schools wifi

See y'all later 

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Hiatus

2 min read
Will most likely be gone for a bit

Getting in trouble, family stuff, etc. Being monitored and well, just taking a break for now. I'll try getting on when I can, hopefully this will wear off

<3

Deer


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